Out of Reach

 

Spring is spent

And I repent

Sordidly 

I’ve grown to be

 

Where olive trees grow

In the absence of snow

Distant below, they’re aglow 

 

Righteous voice

Speaks in my ear

Of early times

A souvenir 

 

Young lushly care free

Roamed through youth blindly 

 

(Chorus)

Now as we fall, out of reach 

We must hold up our

Own body’s weight 

As our mothers have done

 

Friends I meet 

Or so to speak 

Lost for words 

My core is weak 

 

Oh, maps that I followed 

Have led me astray 

Though safe at home, couldn't stay

 

Passion waits

On empty plates

Love it fades

But never breaks

 

Lucid but dreaming

Free but I’m scheming 

 

(Chorus)

 

When our parents had us sister

Guarded so we were

How they walked us through the street 

And read us literature

 

Back then I wish that I was older 

Now I wish that I was young

 

 

 

Divide

 

You look for safety

In this love we found

But you’re doubtful 

At every turn

 

So, how can we find

Some peace of mind

 

You ask for answers 

That I cannot give

You expect me

To be someone

 

I cannot be

I cannot be

 

(Chorus)

Why don’t you listen

Why don’t you cry

Dear you oppress me

Open your mind

Honest depiction 

We’re wasting time

Uncertain love

Mend this divide

 

You lose perspective 

On the things you feel

Rush to actions

You can’t undo

 

Try to explain

How I’m to blame 

 

You look for reasons

Why we shouldn’t stay

Then you want me to 

Prove instead

 

How love won’t fade 

How love won’t fade

 

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Sturdy Thoughts

 

Sturdy thoughts I have had in the past

But it passed such a long time ago

Now they rest uneasy and all change so fast

Quiet like rain drops I know they won’t last

 

Fortunate she was, who held me so tight

For the first time to marry, I thought that I might

But then that all crumbled, she left me to cry

The lesson I learned, was to say goodby

 

(Chorus)

Don’t tell me I told you so

Don’t wait up if I don’t show

Don’t hold my body so near

Don’t whisper sweet things in my ear


I’ll be sorry because I should be

Even though she means nothing to me

Though her heart is true and her ways are kind

I won’t look back as I leave her behind

 

So I try my best to be worse than I feel

And I try to make sure that her pain doesn’t heel

I’d rather be lonely and unfair to look

Then to live in the preface of a well known old book

 

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Time

 

How well I remember 

That time far and tender

When safety was easy to find

 

How lovely it felt 

To be young and be held

By the ones who were truthful and kind

 

Now time it has passed 

And the ground’s moving fast 

And the safety once had is to be found

 

(Chorus)

So I hide myself

From time and space

I try to hold

To my young age

 

My mother has said

There are things you forget

Like a song that you used to know

 

The people you’ve left 

And the time that you spent

And the ways that you failed to grow

 

(Chorus)

 

Maybe we can hold on

To this sweet memory

Of when we weren’t so worried

About who we’re gonna be

Who we’re gonna be

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Untied

 

I see your face

I hear your voice

I think of words

To end this

 

Two years have passed us by

Things weren’t easy but they weren’t so hard

Now I search for cautious words

That would sweetly put you down

Sweetly put you down

 

Weight’s lifted off

We say goodbye 

And I hold words back

That would lead us to cry

 

I hurt her so

By telling the truth 

About how 

I feel for somebody new

 

I’m sorry I chose honesty

Instead of compassion

 

Two years have passed us by

Things weren’t easy but they weren't so hard

Now I simply bide my time

Till our paths become untied

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Possessive Love

 

She said a crush was of no harm

And if I couldn’t understand

How their relationship was so defining of our own

My hands are shaking

I can’t see

 

I try and contain myself

And believe in illusion

Ignore all the questions

I shouldn't ask

she wouldn’t answer

 

(Chorus)

Raise my voice

Can’t fall asleep

I wait for you

To love me still

 

Broaden my mind in hopes of peace

Rethink the ways I see her face

The expression of attraction airs my memory

Of fearful love

How hard I’ve held it

And still do

 

I limit your heartedness

And I ask you to love less

Not knowing that when 

I seize you close

Push you far

 

(Chorus)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

#7

 

Dear father, you’ve sunken my fate

This wind has blown past

My wish for a clear farewell

Now, I have grown do worn

 

Afraid, alone in this bed

My heart throbs with pain

It’s silenced my head

And so, I’m fading slowly

 

Dear mother, I miss your embrace

Your hands on my face

Lights off to your words, I know

I’ll see you so soon